I was attracted to this book from the blurb describing a girl who is destined to be a Hollywood star determined to make her dreams come true. However, this book is not what I was expecting at all.
Laura Cassidy has dreamed of being a star her whole life in order to walk in her deceased dad’s footsteps. However, so far it hasn’t worked out for her. When the local theatre company announces it has a new director and production starting shortly Laura is convinced this is her opportunity to shine and get her big break, but when she isn’t cast in the main role she doesn’t quite know what to do.
It’s not very often the main character of a story is not portrayed as practically perfect so to have a seemingly damaged protagonist was a breath of fresh air. However, I very almost gave up on this book at both a quarter through and halfway through as it was so scattered in thoughts I was struggling to really get into it. I feel like it would have been better if there was a duel narration to allow an outsiders view into Laura’s struggles and maybe even an actual diagnosis to compare her struggles to. I did believe that the portrayal of somebody struggling with their mental health and experiencing delusions could be accurate I’m not just sure it translated very well into a story.
I want to add that I think mainstreaming mental ill health into our media is really important and there is real power in normalising these individuals. But I just cannot appreciate this as one of those pieces of media, Laura stalks somebody and causes damage to property yet seems to not experience any remorse or consequences and I worry this is a backward steps in the challenge that so many people have been combatting over the last decade.
I rated this book 1.5/5